This past Sunday, one of my friends from Bible study suggested we look at Twitter for some inspirational posts and such. Honestly, I was a little hesitant. I was on Twitter before, and I didn’t really “get” it. All the hash tags and @whoever was too confusing. I was on Facebook, I had email and texting, I certainly didn’t need one more way for people to talk to me. Until I did.
I’ve been a housewife/stay at home mom for just over a year now. In my previous life, I worked in a pretty busy office, talked to lots of different people every day. I was talked out by the end of the day. It’s been an adjustment to say the least. Most days, I don’t see anyone but Chris and the kids. I don’t drive, well I did, but I don’t now. Long story, it involves no insurance, an accident (I wasn’t at fault) and a suspended license. I look forward to Sundays, because I have church and Bible study, and of course there’s grocery shopping every two weeks…yeah, I don’t have a lot of interaction with people. I’ve been feeling very isolated, very…in my own world. And that’s just not healthy. I know I don’t spend much time talking about it, but I’ve had a lot of struggles with depression. There are days that I don’t want to get out of bed, I just want to sleep and let the world pass me by. Those are the days that I crave contact the most. Those are the days that are the hardest to remember why I gave up working so that my kids would have what Chris and I feel is best for them, which is a full-time mom at home. We had a break over the holidays from out Bible study group (and they really are THE best people I’ve ever known. I’d trust any one of them with anything. They’re just awesome), and the break was hard. I missed the interaction. And there was the whole not going home for Christmas thing. That was really hard. Chris and I were seemingly at constant odds. That was the hardest. It was just one thing on top of another, just piling on, while I feel like I’m being crushed under the weight of this loneliness and isolation. Don’t feel sorry for me, I don’t want pity. It’s my own fault for allowing myself to wallow in it, and it’s my own fault for looking in instead of up for answers.
So Sunday night, I went home and got reacquainted with Twitter at the suggestion of my friend. And pretty much…it’s awesome. How did I not use it a year ago?! It’s WAY faster than Facebook. And who wants to scroll through all the “today’s horoscope is” or “repost this 73 times if you agree” posts (sorry if you do that. I just don’t want to read it!) I think of Twitter like texting, only it’s a much bigger audience. It’s instantaneous replies, a wealth of friends, acquaintances, people you admire, people you think are funny, inspiration, the list is endless. It can really be what you want it to be. Facebook is great, don’t get me wrong, but for me right now, Twitter makes me feel like there’s a whole world out there of people who think the same things that I think…because they’re the ones I choose to follow, unlike Facebook, when your friend starts raving about how we should eat kittens for dinner because they’re good protein, there’s really not an off switch. Twitter there is. I just don’t have to follow them. They can follow me, but it doesn’t have to be mutual. Yes, I know that I can hide what certain people say on Facebook, and I have from time to time, but that just seems rude. And what if they talk to you and you don’t answer because you’ve hidden all of their posts. Busted.
Anyway. Twitter has helped me reconnect to the world. Now I feel like I can throw off the covers and face the day, metaphorically and literally. I’m interested in what’s going on in the rest of the world. I’m inspired and convicted by the Bible verses, quotes and the like. When my friend suggested Twitter to me, she told me about the people she follows and how their quotes and verses surround her in the Word all day long. She was SO right! I love talking to people who I wouldn’t normally talk to often because they’re not on Facebook much. I’m just really glad I gave it another shot.
You can follow me on Twitter if you want. You can see what I’ve said that’s fascinating (although it’s rarely fascinating) or just mundane. Or you can say, Psh. I don’t care what Merritt says. And that’s ok too. But I’d highly recommend you try Twitter, especially if you’re at home or feel isolated. There’s a whole other world out there.
P.S. I don’t really have a friend that raves about eating kittens for dinner. I just didn’t want to use a specific example and single anyone out.