now if I could just figure out those darn hashtags

3 Feb

This past Sunday, one of my friends from Bible study suggested we look at Twitter for some inspirational posts and such. Honestly, I was a little hesitant. I was on Twitter before, and I didn’t really “get” it. All the hash tags and @whoever was too confusing. I was on Facebook, I had email and texting, I certainly didn’t need one more way for people to talk to me. Until I did.

I’ve been a housewife/stay at home mom for just over a year now. In my previous life, I worked in a pretty busy office, talked to lots of different people every day. I was talked out by the end of the day. It’s been an adjustment to say the least. Most days, I don’t see anyone but Chris and the kids. I don’t drive, well I did, but I don’t now. Long story, it involves no insurance, an accident (I wasn’t at fault) and a suspended license. I look forward to Sundays, because I have church and Bible study, and of course there’s grocery shopping every two weeks…yeah, I don’t have a lot of interaction with people. I’ve been feeling very isolated, very…in my own world. And that’s just not healthy. I know I don’t spend much time talking about it, but I’ve had a lot of struggles with depression. There are days that I don’t want to get out of bed, I just want to sleep and let the world pass me by. Those are the days that I crave contact the most. Those are the days that are the hardest to remember why I gave up working so that my kids would have what Chris and I feel is best for them, which is a full-time mom at home. We had a break over the holidays from out Bible study group (and they really are THE best people I’ve ever known. I’d trust any one of them with anything. They’re just awesome), and the break was hard. I missed the interaction. And there was the whole not going home for Christmas thing. That was really hard. Chris and I were seemingly at constant odds. That was the hardest. It was just one thing on top of another, just piling on, while I feel like I’m being crushed under the weight of this loneliness and isolation. Don’t feel sorry for me, I don’t want pity. It’s my own fault for allowing myself to wallow in it, and it’s my own fault for looking in instead of up for answers.

So Sunday night, I went home and got reacquainted with Twitter at the suggestion of my friend. And pretty much…it’s awesome. How did I not use it a year ago?! It’s WAY faster than Facebook. And who wants to scroll through all the “today’s horoscope is” or “repost this 73 times if you agree” posts (sorry if you do that. I just don’t want to read it!) I think of Twitter like texting, only it’s a much bigger audience. It’s instantaneous replies, a wealth of friends, acquaintances, people you admire, people you think are funny, inspiration, the list is endless. It can really be what you want it to be. Facebook is great, don’t get me wrong, but for me right now, Twitter makes me feel like there’s a whole world out there of people who think the same things that I think…because they’re the ones I choose to follow, unlike Facebook, when your friend starts raving about how we should eat kittens for dinner because they’re good protein, there’s really not an off switch. Twitter there is. I just don’t have to follow them. They can follow me, but it doesn’t have to be mutual. Yes, I know that I can hide what certain people say on Facebook, and I have from time to time, but that just seems rude. And what if they talk to you and you don’t answer because you’ve hidden all of their posts. Busted.

Anyway. Twitter has helped me reconnect to the world. Now I feel like I can throw off the covers and face the day, metaphorically and literally. I’m interested in what’s going on in the rest of the world. I’m inspired and convicted by the Bible verses, quotes and the like. When my friend suggested Twitter to me, she told me about the people she follows and how their quotes and verses surround her in the Word all day long. She was SO right! I love talking to people who I wouldn’t normally talk to often because they’re not on Facebook much. I’m just really glad I gave it another shot.

You can follow me on Twitter if you want. You can see what I’ve said that’s fascinating (although it’s rarely fascinating) or just mundane. Or you can say, Psh. I don’t care what Merritt says. And that’s ok too. But I’d highly recommend you try Twitter, especially if you’re at home or feel isolated. There’s a whole other world out there.

P.S. I don’t really have a friend that raves about eating kittens for dinner. I just didn’t want to use a specific example and single anyone out.


6 Responses to “now if I could just figure out those darn hashtags”

  1. angelstreasures February 4, 2011 at 12:03 am #

    Hi Merritt,
    It’s Angel! I really enjoyed reading your post! It really made me stop and think of how much family really means! You are a wonderful person! I am here if you ever need to talk, ok!!!!

    • Merritt February 7, 2011 at 11:54 am #

      Thank you Angel! ❤

  2. Michaela February 4, 2011 at 11:08 am #

    Merfish, I had no idea that you were going through such things. I am so very sorry Merritt Badge. I can empathize. I haven’t driven since the stroke at the end of July and I am currently on week 3 of bed rest. I am losing my mind, I swear!! I know the loss of independence of not being able to drive, and I am so very sorry. I didn’t realize. Plus Mom & I aren’t doing well. All she seems to want to do is yell at me, bashing Josh and the choices I’ve made in life. She’s just pissed I don’t let her control me any more. Gary even blocked me on facebook. They are being terrible. I love them dearly and I’m always the one at fault in their eyes. You can commiserate lol. You are so very right. I don’t look up enough, I look inward far too often. Got some great news yesterday though at the high risk specialist. I had to have a procedure done to keep my cervix closed to keep the baby in so that he won’t deliver early & it’s working well. That is such a load off. I’ve been terrified that I’m going to lose him too. And Mom has the audacity to rant at me. Yes, I’m venting & I’m sorry. I struggle with honor thy Mother and Father all of the time. Josh and I councilor I was seeing opened my eyes though; Mom is so abusive. It’s a terrible feeling. I know that her wrath has been directed to you in the past and I took her side, once again trying to honor thy Mother, and I am very sorry. I was wrong. We all have our problems, and I was blind to some that I shouldn’t have been. All it really did was keep me “under control” and keep me from having a relationship with my cousin and her wonderful family. I loce you all so much & I pray that you truly know that. All my best Merfish…Love M

    • Merritt February 7, 2011 at 11:54 am #

      Girl, you need to send me an email! You know I’m always here for you. Love you girl 🙂

  3. Amanda February 4, 2011 at 3:08 pm #

    I’m SO glad you loved twitter! Now if I can get the rest of our lifegroup to join in, we’ll be in business! 🙂

    • Merritt February 7, 2011 at 11:55 am #

      Yeah, thanks a lot, now I’m totally addicted!:P

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